I wouldn’t say that I ever suffered from feeling ugly or fat as a teenager – the time where we all think is the hardest time for girls (and boys). I was in my own world with my group, I had no interest in being popular, I was happy where I was.
It’s been more evident as an adult that I have self-esteem issues that I should deal with.
Mine come not in the form of not being pretty or skinny enough (although I am trying to lose weight for my own good). It’s more so in what I say and do. I’ve always attributed to social anxiety – but many around me would argue that I don’t have that. They say I’m too friendly to have social anxiety.
Maybe I don’t, maybe it is just a self-esteem issue and calling it anxiety makes it sound better somehow?
Let me explain…
I am constantly worried about what others are thinking about me. Not about my looks, but about what I say and do. I feel that I am inadequate. I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I think it is founded in some cases, but in some I have to remind myself and they couldn’t care less about what I’m doing or saying.
It is definitely something that is a work in progress. Does anyone else have this “problem”?
I think this is something a lot of people deal with. We're constantly bombarded with images of stick thin models and being a hater is more in style than being nice.
ReplyDeleteYes, I always worry people think I'm crazy. Maybe I am slightly crazy though.
ReplyDeleteI think you aren't alone...because I used to feel this way. I was often embarrassed if people didn't laugh at times I thought I was funny or didn't want to say the "uncool thing". I don't know if I grew out of it or just gained confidence in the goofy girl that I am. Being you is the coolest thing we can be though :) THanks for linking up!
ReplyDeleteIt's nice not to be alone!
ReplyDeleteI think lots of us worry about how we come across to others, but we must be true to ourselves.
ReplyDeleteDefinitely! Thanks!
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